Friday, September 28, 2012
i think raw is one of my number one values
One of my perpetual issues with the internet/blogosphere/realm of self-employed life coaches, is I feel this pressure to be fucking happy all the time. As if life coaching is selling happiness. I've got two problems with this: 1--I don't want to sell anything. 2--Especially not happiness.
I wanna be happy, like everyone else. But mostly, I wanna feel alive. Like I can handle the full range of my aliveness. Like I can really be with myself in all my gory glorious ways. (If you've been reading here for a while, you might notice that "gory glory" is one of my favorite phrases ever. It just fits. Let's not exclude the gore, like we've got a choice. It sneaks in. Just like everything else. Why not have a place for it at the table? Why invite it to throw temper tantrums? C'mon.)
I love the question posed in the video above. I wish someone had asked me.
I love Ze's ending: That part of me is just a joke. You can have it.
I don't consciously understand what he means by that, but I know it to be true for me, too, somehow. Yes. Me too, Ze.
Mostly, I thought I'd show my face on this blog and let you know that I'm writing with no end in sight. Poems and poems a day. With nowhere to put them--yet. I'm coaching a lot, too, and am in the process of building a new website/completely new "business model". I'm going to be leaning into my real, deep, true beliefs about money and generosity and togetherness. I'm really excited and feeling full of faith and trust that this leap will be wild and wise. Mostly, it'll be raw and real. Creative. Simple.
All the self-help business books tell you to go all the way to the edge of being yourself. I've read enough of them to know that selling shit is NOT me.
I cannot wait to reintroduce myself. My whole self. And let you decide whatcha wanna do with me ;)
How are you today? What's one raw way of your being that usually gets tucked under the bed before anyone can see it? I dare ya to pencil it in in the comments below.
loving & lusting,