this rebirth business. it's like one heaving exhale at a time. roaring. sweating. in-the-zone insanity. thrilling. terrifying. electrifying. exhausting. then balmy slimy smiley newness. i'm pretty sure something died. then something new shot through. (but declarations and words in general have me feeling quite uneasy these days.) "just keep going" it is. ps--i do love portland. so so much.